portrait of a girl

It's annoying when people ask you questions that you can't answer, but it's even more frustrating if you can't answer your own questions. Do you understand that? So when no one can answer your question, where can we turn to? God? I hate to admit it, but sometimes I can't feel a connection whenever I pray. Is it because a part of me is holding back from that? Why would that part of me hold back? Again. I can't answer my own questions. It's so frustrating. Am I wired wrong? Do I have some kind of genetic problem? There are those who can easily tune in with God. I can't help but be jealous of their high-energy passion for Him. I can't seem to bring myself, to be us pumped up as they are. Am I a lukewarm Christian then? Is it because logic and faith aren't on the same page? It's difficult when you're being trained to be logical, and you're still expected to remain faithful. There are no proofs to support claim of an existing Being, wh...

 9.  Something you’re proud of in the past few posts  days I AM TOO LAZY TO EMPHASIZE. I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I'M PROUD I FOUND MY WAY BACK TO GOD AGAIN, AFTER WANDERING IN THE DESERT.  I decided to change the post to days, because there isn't much to brag about my posts. It's my daily life with random side thoughts, and it's not that interesting to be proud of. So in place, I will post something I am proud of the past few days. There will be those times of weakness, where you start asking questions about your faith. However, that's when you realize that your is greater than all those doubts. Philosophy made me doubt (it's basically about doubting everything and be only sure that you're doubting), but I managed to put my heart more into my faith and my God. It actually helps you realize how stronger you have become because you overcame such obstacle. I was actually a bit shy to talk to God, after seemingly ignoring Him the past few days. It wasn...

7. A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you I have got to admit that there are a lot of people or somethings that made an impact in my life. I should give them a lot of credit. My parents, my siblings, my cousins, my friends, my teachers and classmates! But if it weren't for the person who had the biggest impact on me, I wouldn't have met them at all. So the answer? Jesus Christ! If it isn't obvious,then I'll try to explain as much as I can. I believe in hell, and before I knew Christ, I wasn't sure if I wouldn't end up there. I feared death because of the thought. Anyways, I didn't discover Him on my own. I know I should probably give credit to my awesome friends, but I feel like Jesus was using them to get to me. In the end, He was the one working the strings. He in the end saved me. His Words give me hope. His gift of life is one of the greatest riches. I am well and healthy, I have a great family. I have fr...