portrait of a girl

It's annoying when people ask you questions that you can't answer, but it's even more frustrating if you can't answer your own questions. Do you understand that? So when no one can answer your question, where can we turn to? God? I hate to admit it, but sometimes I can't feel a connection whenever I pray. Is it because a part of me is holding back from that? Why would that part of me hold back? Again. I can't answer my own questions. It's so frustrating. Am I wired wrong? Do I have some kind of genetic problem? There are those who can easily tune in with God. I can't help but be jealous of their high-energy passion for Him. I can't seem to bring myself, to be us pumped up as they are. Am I a lukewarm Christian then? Is it because logic and faith aren't on the same page? It's difficult when you're being trained to be logical, and you're still expected to remain faithful. There are no proofs to support claim of an existing Being, wh...

I've never had insomnia before. Usually, I get knocked out the moment I get on my bed. Or, maybe it's not insomnia. Maybe I'm just having a hard time trying to sleep. Either way. . I'm bored. So for the mean time, I shall type just about all the random things going on my mind. First is. . I want pretty layouts. Somebody make me a pretty layout, and I will love you forever! I dislike my layout, because I liked the previous one with clouds and calendars. The problem with the previous layouts is that people can't comment. I don't know ANYTHING about codes and all those techy words, so I would be utterly lost if I even tried. Believe me, I would've tried if I knew where to start. Tutorials aren't helping, because it's too outdated. It's very annoying, thus I had to sacrifice it's prettiness. /WEEP Second is. . Tomorrow is my grandmother's 70th birthday! Hooray! I am so excited, because I don't have any plans for tomorrow. I bet ...