portrait of a girl

It's annoying when people ask you questions that you can't answer, but it's even more frustrating if you can't answer your own questions. Do you understand that? So when no one can answer your question, where can we turn to? God? I hate to admit it, but sometimes I can't feel a connection whenever I pray. Is it because a part of me is holding back from that? Why would that part of me hold back? Again. I can't answer my own questions. It's so frustrating. Am I wired wrong? Do I have some kind of genetic problem? There are those who can easily tune in with God. I can't help but be jealous of their high-energy passion for Him. I can't seem to bring myself, to be us pumped up as they are. Am I a lukewarm Christian then? Is it because logic and faith aren't on the same page? It's difficult when you're being trained to be logical, and you're still expected to remain faithful. There are no proofs to support claim of an existing Being, wh...

26. What you think about your friends In my previous post, I mentioned some group of friends. However, I will only talk about the Girls at the Back. I know I will never trade any one of them for the world. I will not say that they're best friends, or whatever. I just want to think of them as irreplaceable, priceless, and God-given group of individuals. With them, I can be me. I can be wild. I can be calm. I can be spontaneous. I can be reflective. I can be stupid. I can be clever. I can be demanding. I can be whoever I am. Actually, this post may not be enough. I'll try to summarize this the best that I can so that it wouldn't be too long to read. Nikka I knew Nikka well in second year. Before that, she was only the girl from the other section who had anime text clans. I don't know why I used to think of her that way, but that's how things were. By second year, we had so many chances to get close. I don't have any specific moments that would ...