portrait of a girl

It's annoying when people ask you questions that you can't answer, but it's even more frustrating if you can't answer your own questions. Do you understand that? So when no one can answer your question, where can we turn to? God? I hate to admit it, but sometimes I can't feel a connection whenever I pray. Is it because a part of me is holding back from that? Why would that part of me hold back? Again. I can't answer my own questions. It's so frustrating. Am I wired wrong? Do I have some kind of genetic problem? There are those who can easily tune in with God. I can't help but be jealous of their high-energy passion for Him. I can't seem to bring myself, to be us pumped up as they are. Am I a lukewarm Christian then? Is it because logic and faith aren't on the same page? It's difficult when you're being trained to be logical, and you're still expected to remain faithful. There are no proofs to support claim of an existing Being, wh...

After Viel's Debut, I ended up back in our house. Vacations are the only time I can really rest, since my course requires mind blowing efforts. Like any normal teenager, I was on the internet a lot. I spent time with my cousins goofing around. I watched television. I went out with my family to watch movies (The Strangers is a respectable enough film). Basically, everything was smooth. The highlights of the rest of the days were: New Year's Eve Celebration and GATB Meet-up/First Day of School/ Thursday Madness. I will talk about all that in this post, to make up for my extended disappearance in the blogging community. NEW YEARS EVE Remember when I said that our family liked to celebrate every holiday together at my Grandma's? Well, obviously New Year's Eve was no exception. This time, we didn't have gifts in hand. However, we had our pouches ready. We were getting ready for-- I'll talk about that later. We bought food to share, and so did everyone else in t...