portrait of a girl

Remember when I said that class was over? Well, I wasn't being honest to myself. Sure, I didn't have to wake up early every day. I didn't have to prepare myself for a quiz, or make any assignments. It was just weird. It's like going out on a sunny day wearing layers of sweatshirts. It was an uncomfortable feeling, and I couldn't shake it off. I couldn't feel absolute freedom from school since I didn't have my grades yet. I didn't know what was the outcome of all those days I spent trying to understand everything. As an end-oriented person, I has gots to know! But now after two weeks of nonstop nightmares about failing--- I did have nightmares--, it's finally here! I AM FINALLY SET FREE Soaring. Flying. There's not a star in heaven that we can't reach Oh yes, baby. My grades are finally complete! As you can see, my grades increased and decreased. What made me happy the most is seeing my Chem 3 increase a letter grade higher...

So, I am officially on summer break. I guess that would mean I have plenty of time to revive my internet self. Either that, or I spend time on more productive stuff like studying. It's been such a long time since I've talked about something. I'm no longer sure what I want to talk about. Actually, I have so many things to say. The words just don't seem to come to me. I'll jump from one topic to another then. You know what? I've realized that I can never be truly happy if I don't have God with me. For the past days, I have been ignoring God. It's hard to admit, since people tend to misjudge. I was struggling with stress, so I wasn't relying in Him. I thought that I could only rely on my self since it's my problem in the first place. I guess that made everything unnecessarily harder for me. Once I realized that, some things felt lighter. I gave Him a role in my life again. It's kind of hard to explain, but it felt like I can still ...